I am sick and tired of hearing people say bad things about my degree. Applied Liberal Arts is a general ed degree but it is an area that I am exceptionally good at. I am, and will be, a well rounded individual who will take on the world head on. I am not afraid of anything but failure, and if I don’t try then that is failing. So I just want you people to know that you must try to succeed. If you don’t even try then whats the point in doing anything ever? Just sit around and be lazy. Become fat, and then die.
I am doing something with my life. I don’t know what it is yet but I am working hard, studying all the time and always in the library. I am going somewhere with my life, even if its nothing big. As long as its something that I love then it doesn’t matter what I do. I love it and thats all that matters. I will defeat anything that gets in my way and my power will be strong.
Don’t you let any one tell you other wise. You can be strong too. I am talking to you people who are too weak to stand up for yourselves. Be strong. Don’t let anyone tell you you can’t do it. Because you know what? You can. So go do it. And do it with some pride.
I am loving the weather outside. It is so lovely and nice. The sun is shining but it is not too hot. The heat, though, I know is coming. I am not looking forward to the heat. But I am looking forward to summer vacation. I am still going to take a summer class, but one class is better than five. A break is much needed. I don’t know about anyone else, but I definitely need a break.
I need time to think about graduate school. What master’s program do I want to go into. I don’t feel qualified to do anything. I feel almost like a failure. That I can’t do school any more and that I shouldn’t even finish my degree now. Which is silly because I only have a year left. Thats why I think I need a break. I need a break to take a breather and relax and remember that I am going to be one of the first grand kids to have graduated on both sides of my parent’s families.
That is a big accomplishment and I should be proud. Of course I am proud to graduate, it will have been four extra years of school. I just don’t see myself going any where. I want to go and do and be something great. And where I am at now is stuck trying to decide which path is best for me. Nothing seems possible. It’s like the ceiling looking glass. I can see a good future but I can’t get to it. I am stuck, in limbo trying to figure out where I belong.
This is probably why I haven’t figured out what graduate program I want to go into or anything. I don’t like this feeling of being stuck and not being able to decide. It is very nerve wrecking. I think I just need to jump into the heat and just go for something, but what if its the wrong thing? What if its not for me? Then I would have wasted time and money. And that is a big problem. So we will see where I go from here….
I miss the memories.
We were so young
And in love.
Even though I denied it.
My heart and soul
The day we met
On the broken down tennis courts.
A light filled inside me
One that will never fade.
We were meant to meet
That fateful spring.
But now time has passed
And we have forgotten
What it was like
To be so full of life.
After three years
We have reconnected.
As the memories come flooding back
You were perfect
And I blew it.
I’ve moved on.
”—Another poem I did for my class. The ending is kind of harsh, but I didn’t really know what else to do for it. So it is open for ideas and changes. Poetry is always changing as it is. I love the study of poetry and my creative writing class has showed me the love of studying poetry. Maybe I should get my masters in creative writing. But what else can I do with that besides write my own stuff? There is no money in that and I don’t really like half the things I write any way…
I regret to
That I have dumped
You for a reason.
You should not cry,
Whine, or complain.
Your pitiful pleas
Are quite Lame.
For this inconvenience,
But I’m happy now
Without your annoying presence.
”—A short poem I wrote in creative writing today. I think it is quite good. It is following the style of William Carlos Williams and his poem called This Is Just To Say. It was inspired by an old boyfriend, although the events aren’t quite true with what the poem reads it is still something that everyone has to deal with at some point in their life. Maybe this poem will be published one day and read by many.
I am a junior trying to figure out my way in life. I am concerned greatly with what program I should enter into graduate school. It has been a thorn in my side this whole year. I have no idea where I should go… I have thought of either English or Law School but they seem very plain and don’t seem to fit me. I want to do something I like and possibly love because it will be very hard and time consuming. With my random major its hard to decide what I should do. I don’t feel qualified to apply to any kind of program because it is a very plain major. Its called Applied Liberal Arts. So my goal is to try to figure out what to do and where to go.
Welcome to my blog. My name is Taylor and I am a junior at the University of Central Oklahoma where I am currently pursuing a degree in Applied Liberal Arts with two minors in Latin and English. Graduation is just a year away and it is driving me insane. One would think that I should be happy and rejoicing this part of my life. Yet I am worried about graduate school. Should I go? Where should I go? What should I go for? Its a constant battle in my head on trying to figure out my way through life. These struggles weigh me down along with all of the hard studying and work that I put into my classes each semester. Sometimes I wonder if college has changed me for the worst. I feel like I have lost myself among the books, lectures, and papers these past few years. So I am here to find myself again. Who I’ve been hates who I am. Its time for self discovery.